I swear, IVF is one big mind game for however long you wait until beta. No really, it is. I'm constantly jumping back and forth between feeling positive and negative about the outcome, then to somewhere in the realm of: it is what it is, we can always try again. I know the success, or lack there of, isn't up to me.
Some "symptoms":
Yup, that's it. And the first one isn't really consistent, so maybe it's just gas. Last time around this time, I was extremely thirsty, I drank like 4 liters a day! My boobs also hurt at this time and now, a great big nada.
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So, basically the last 2 days, just had cramping; not AF style, more like pulling and twinging, which I hope is a good sign - this started almost immediately after transfer, I was afraid they hit something. I've also been worried that nothing went in, as I didn't see anything on the screen this time, but we'll see. I'm hoping if they were strong enough to make it to freeze and to thaw completely without damage they are strong enough to be take home babies.
I've totally vegged out playing Zelda yesterday, got super irate with the controls, I'm still adjusting to the camera move and the actually moves. I still like super Nintendo the best, I'm old fashioned. DH also was playing with me, it is really hard to watch someone else play because they don't do what you're thinking which makes me nuts. We also took the ducklings outside to play in a pool, it was adorable. My one dog tried to eat my ducks twice so I was a maniac, I hope I didn't put too much stress on my body to do damage with the implantation process. I've been watching thrillers the last 2 days which I probably shouldn't be watching, but I did. Nocturnal Animals sucked, don't waste the 1.50 at Redbox to rent it. Transfer went well, both embryos made the thaw. Hoping they stick!!!
I can't remember if I had cramping immediately after last time like I did this time. I think my cervix was giving them trouble, the transfer itself was uncomfortable, then again a super super full bladder that hurt didn't help. That I know wasn't like that last time. I couldn't wait the full 5 minutes after to get up and pee. I do need to continue the estradiol until beta at a higher rate. Here's to hoping and praying these babies stick. Transfer day is finally here!
I am so excited and nervous, I've been praying they survive the thaw as I'm super nervous about that. I plan to rest and relax today. I feel like a big kid, because I'm really looking forward to playing video games later - I honestly haven't just vegged out and done that in so long. I'm going to workout before we leave so I can have a good blood flow to the pelvic area to hopefully increase the chances. Last cycle I was completely incapacitated due to stimming and then egg retrieval. It has truly been wonderful exercising. What I've done and plan to continue to do differently this transfer:
Tomorrow is transfer day and I need to make sure all my ducks are in a row at work for tomorrow and Monday. I'm super excited, also much calmer this time around. I'm hoping and praying both ❄️ babies survive the freeze - honestly, it's so hot here sometimes maybe my babies wanted to be in the cold 😂
lining looks good, actually, I was even able to see it. I'm taking more estradiol for the next few days and starting PIO tonight. 6 days until transfer! It's getting real 😬
So tomorrow is my lining check.
I'm excited and nervous. I keep hoping and praying it all is good. I've done acupuncture twice this week and I've been working out like a mad woman to keep blood flow fresh, also lots of water. I just want tomorrow to get here already so we can know our status! These are the socks I mentioned before: I'm so in love with these!! 😍 I'm super excited to wear these during this FET cycle, especially after the transfer. The socks are available on Etsy: They came really quick and I'm very satisfied with them.
And 3 days until lining check..... So, I have 5 days until my lining check. I'm so excited and can't wait till it gets here. I've been using a heating pad and exercising. It has been amazing to exercise! I am rather out of shape from taking a month off to do stims last cycle, I've started insanity again just to make sure I definitely have good circulation.
Today I decided to go to acupuncture, I haven't gone in a while, since December actually. It felt good, I feel really relaxed. I asked about going before or after and she told me to not go the day before transfer, but the day before that day so my body has a break. After, she said to wait until pregnancy is confirmed. My socks that I ordered should be coming today! I'll post pics later. I got them as a present to myself to keep positive during this FET cycle and I honestly can not wait to wear them. Holy headaches Batman!
I remember when I was taking the puregon I had just dull headaches, just annoying, just there, but not with estradiol, nope, this gives you migraines. Full on migraines. I actually couldn't believe how bad these are. It will all be worth it in the end is what I keep telling myself. |
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