I go into the doctor tomorrow morning. I don't feel much. Maybe a little, if anything. I definitely am a tad bloated. Maybe I feel a little pressure. I'm going to drop my weights slightly today. I'll probably keep my cardio bursts short. Just to be safe.
I've been trying to do my Circle + Bloom nightly, but I don't make it past the first 3 minutes without passing out. School is almost out. I got one more day left of students after today, and then a teacher work day. It's in the home stretch. I cannot wait for this year to end. I'm tired. Like Super Super duper tired. It's bad. I'm excited to not have to drive to work every day, and even more excited I can sleep. I have to finish up a couple things today to finish the check out process, not much left. DH will be helping me out tomorrow after work on the final things. I'm also excited that my Italian pride shirts shipped! They should be here Saturday; I do wish it was sooner so I could wear them to school on Friday, but it is what it is. Also my Teacher Misery book will be here today I believe, definitely excited to read that. Part of me feels like I just know that this is going to work. I felt like this last year too, like I just know this cycle will give us a THB. Last year, I felt like I just knew we were finally getting pregnant. I also at times feel super strongly that we might have twins from this. I hope I'm right. I don't think I felt this way in January during that cycle. I'll have to check back. In any event, until tomorrow's check. 🙏🤞🌈🦄
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I'm two days into stims and I feel nothing. No headaches, no discomfort, nada. I even went for an almost 3 mile run in 100 degree heat. I legit don't feel anything. I guess I'm keeping the weight loads the same for another day.
I'm not sure if it's because I'm on weaker medication or what? Like I used to be on puregon 300, I'm on corneumon 150. Who knows. I was looking up the differences between the two. Puregon is follitropin beta and corneumon is follitropin alpha; the alpha supposedly yields a better pregnancy rate, time will tell. I'm really hoping that we see something good on Friday. I have no idea if I'm going to stim longer or the same, or quicker because of the HGH. I feel like there's this really crazy mystery going on in my body. I know it takes one good embryo and that's it. Just one. I need more greens in my diet, I'm probably going to stop at the grocery store on my way home from work and grab lettuce. I'll try to have salads nightly. I also need more sleep, definitely did not get enough last night. If I start to feel anything, I'll update; if not, I'll wait till Friday to update after I go in. Today is my baseline appointment. I'm so excited to finally start this next ivf cycle.
I like Mega cheated on my diet this weekend. I hate when AF comes. I had movie theatre popcorn and dessert at the restaurant we went to Saturday AND I ate chocolate covered pecans, and like 4-5 chocolate chip cookies from one of those fundraisers my neighbors kid sold us with the cookie dough last night. Now it's clean eating only. I'm not doing that again. I feel horrible this morning. I feel hung over, and I didn't drink anything last night. Alcohol is cut out now too. I'm also figuring I have about 2, (maybe) 3 days left of heavy weights, before I start dropping for safety reasons. That includes today. I went for a jog both Saturday and Sunday, I plan to go again today. I like how I feel after. 😊 I also have my therapy session tonight. Also, there are only 5 days left. 😬 🙌🙌🙌🙌 In any event, I'll update post baseline. UPDATE: 9 follies Apparently puregon is not available, so I'm on corneumon. We may not be doing PGS Continue HGH Start prednisone Start lovenox after AF Go back on Friday. I am 2 days out from AF. I've been spotting for a few days now, likely due to the scratch. I've taken tests (all BFN), just because my boobs hurt and my urine got a tad funky smelling. Being my boobs hurt, I think my hormones are now under control. Prior to fertility treatments, they used to hurt during LP. After a few months of Clomid, and most certainly IVF/FET, that didn't happen anymore.
I'm ready to start what will hopefully be our final (because it works) IVF cycle. Hoping to finally get a THB. At this point, we've had 5 transfers: 3 fresh, 2 frozen. If the fresh, 1 resulted in a BFP. However both frozen, were doomed from the get go. That medication screwed with my body so much, there was no way it was going to be successful. So I feel like I wasted 5 embryos for nothing. I almost feel like I can't count those as transfers. Fingers crossed this works. I'll likely wait till my CD 2 to give any real update. 😬 I have been spotting for the last 2-3 days. No idea why. Not sure if it's related to the scratch, or what, but I've been spotting. Getting nervous about my period coming early.
My boobs also hurt really bad, which I did take a pregnancy test yesterday, and BFN. I know it is early, but I don't want to get my hopes up. I know my boobs generally don't hurt post ovulation, they used to every now and then, but not really. And definitely not since starting IVF treatments over a year ago. I might test again tomorrow to check what's going on. I just don't want my period to come early. One of the really shitty things about IVF is the bloating I'll endure. It really does mess with your body a bit. I hope I don't bloat that bad. My retrieval last June wasn't horrible, but then again, I also didn't eat much junk around that time. Similarly, I'm barely eating any junk now; however, I do need more greens in my diet. I've been slacking. I've been hyper focused on cutting down sugar and grains, which I've done successfully. I also think it's made my body very sensitive to sugar. Now I get horrible sugar crashes, even after ingesting small amounts of sugary items. Also, I'm not quite at my goal weight yet, but I'm close. This morning I chose to weigh myself because I noticed the remaining back roll is almost nonexistent, I'm down to 141.2 lbs. Hoping to see a flat 140 this coming weigh in, and then a drop to 137 the following week. I'm down to a size 8, from a 10, and those 8's are a little loose in the waist. Not the legs, but my legs have become extremely muscular. My hope is that getting down to a healthy weight/BMI will impact this coming cycle in a positive way. I'm also hoping that be eating well, and cutting out grains and beef (which are known to cause inflammation and negatively impact fertility), will create a good outcome. I know the last June cycle, I was eating very very very healthy. I was also exercising and walking. I do believe that had a positive impact. Both my Feb '17 and Jan '18 cycles, I ate like shit. In fact, Jan I ate chocolate every single day. I barely ate any protein, just straight crap from the holidays and stress. I was also at my heaviest in January. I do still have two ❄️ babies, and I do strongly feel they are normal, but I think my eating habits had a very large impact on the outcome of that cycle. My hormones got all screwy, and I started bleeding mid cycle after transfer. If you look at my embryo to egg ratio, the June cycle was better (7:5 vs 7:4, and in January, they transferred 2 of my 4 embryos at 3 days, so who knows if I would've even had 4 blasts, the last 2 became blasts). Hoping for a repeat performance, especially that in taking HGH which is used to increase quality, who knows, maybe I'll get 6 or 7 out of 7 🤷♀️ This time we are PGS testing. Even having ate super crappy, the HGH I do believe played a role in giving us our first ever hatching blast that will be transferred this coming cycle. Inching closer to IVF #4.
On some level, I am super excited. Then I'll be like, no you'll fall hard. There are times when feel like I just know this is going to work. I felt like this last summer too, but I feel like I just know this is bringing us a THB (at times I even feel like it's babies). I feel like BOTH of our ❄️ babies are normal, and that we'll get 2-3 confirmed normals this retrieval. I'm assuming I'll be on prednisone and lovenox the whole way through again so my body doesn't attack baby. Overall, I've been eating super healthy and really sticking to my diet, with the exception of the weekend. I did go a little overboard. So, this week is super hardcore. I know this weekend we are planning to try a particular bakery and I'll cheat, so I want to keep it super clean until then. Basically, I'll cheat once or twice a week. I really don't like having sugar because it completely wipes me out. I get a really strong burst, followed by a hard crash. Every. Single. Time. So, I really just need to have little bits. The one thing I did not give up: wine. I have been having a half glass of red wine nightly. Usually a port. It helps me sleep. Plus all the benefits to it. Some related to fertility. In any event, not sure how much I'll update prior to CD 2, but I might. Still praying and hoping for our rainbow. 🙏 🤞 🌈 Today I go in for my LIT and endo scratch. I also need to ask about the saizen because, I have a lot left and I don't think I'm supposed to. So I'll ask him about it.
If you've been following my blog for a while now, you'll know I had a bout of cellulitis in Oct. Well, I apparently have it again. No idea why, no idea how, but I have it again. Same leg. I guess at least it's before I start my next cycle as opposed to during. Like I don't know wtf happened. So I'm on an antibiotic. Which is weird because I had said to DH a while back, I wonder if I should request an antibiotic, since I had one during my cycle that resulted in my pregnancy. He was like nah, don't. And I ended up with cellulitis and an antibiotic, at the same point I had an antibiotic at the successful cycle. 🤔 I don't know, I don't believe in coincidences. I also cheated on my diet last night. I wanted ice cream so bad, so I got a small cone from Chick Fil A. It hit the spot to where, I wanted to go back and get another one. I cannot cheat again until the weekend, and I plan on it. In any event, I'll update once I see the Doctor. UPDATE: Scratch and LIT ✅ I have a lot of HGH still, so I'll be taking that during stims as well. Inching closer! I'm going to O right on time, as I'm surfing right on schedule. Only two weeks left. It needs to come fast!!
Still on HGH, still crabby as hell. I'll definitely be on it longer than last time. Last time, I had already finished a vial, this time I still have like about half the vial. So not sure how many days I'll be on this, but I'm like hoping those days fly by. Wednesday I have my scratch and LIT. Slowly, but surely, inching forward. I'm so ready to be done with this, and at transfer of my two snow embabies. Then anxiously awaiting the PGS report of our new embabies. School is almost out, I'm so ready for summer. I'm really not keeping up with this side of the blog as of late. There's really not much to report. Been on the HGH for almost a week, and honestly, I think it's making me really moody. Everything is setting me off. So I'm guessing my hormones were actually stable when I started this.
In a week I go in for my scratch and my LIT. DH and I decided to definitely go thru with the PGS. We started to go on the fence with it. I'm really hoping that my really healthy diet and weight loss help this next cycle to work. I've been going over all the things I did right for my one transfer that did result in a pregnancy, versus the ones that didn't. Diet and not being at work were two of the differences. I'm following the diet really closely; I actually don't even crave sugar anymore. Unfortunately though, I'll be at work for my first week of stims. Ugh. I'm only concerned with them giving me a really hard time about my appointments. My one colleague will likely be out that week for maternity leave, so, yeah. I'm actually hoping I O a day later than I normally would, so I only miss 1 instructional Day. But who are we kidding, grades are due the Friday BEFORE the last week of school. So really, the last week is a complete wash. In any event, here's to hoping for success. Part of me feels really strongly that this is going to work. I feel like one of the two embryos in the freezer is normal, like I just know one of them is. This is also the first FET that will NOT be programmed. So I think that in itself will be tipping the scales in our favor. The last two FETs that had a transfer, were programmed and caused three things: severe IBS flare up, extremely quick weight gain, and traumatic transfers. Both my FETs, they had a hard time with the catheter going in, one time, they switched halfway through. If I'm truly being honest with myself, no way would those be successful given the circumstances. That being said, I'm getting closer, and finally growing excited for this next cycle. Tonight I start the HGH injections.
I am getting excited about this cycle, no idea why, but I am. Maybe it's because it is something new: we're PGS testing the fresh embryos and transferring the frozen embryos. From those frozen ones - one is hatching. I've never had a hatching blast before. I am beyond elated for this. Also, by the time we transfer, I'll be on my diet for 2.5 months. I don't think I've ever been on a diet that long before an IVF cycle. I know I was on one prior to my transfer that resulted in my first pregnancy - even tho it failed - but it wasn't for that long of a time. I've been really sticking to this diet, and I'm really proud of myself for it. It seems really easy to stick to, especially when you realize how crappy sugars and grains make you feel. I've switched to completely wheat free and I feel great. I make my own bread with almond flour and you don't get that bogged down feeling after eating it. Also, where I live currently, bread isn't as great as when I was back home (I'm talking good crusty semolina or Italian bread), so I don't really have the opportunity to get bread. I'm Italian, so I realize it's sacrilege, but the bread really does suck down here. Down here it's all about tortillas. I found a way to make those Paleo too. This weekend I plan to try to make Paleo tamales because for whatever reason, I crave tamales post transfer. I'm cutting out wine aside from weekends now. Last night was my first to night without a glass before bed. I really do enjoy a port before I go to sleep, it does get me to sleep fast. |
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