There's not too much to report. I'm coming up on my fertile days, ironically, they fall on my anniversary. Like how they fell around my wedding night 4 years ago.
We are going to semi try naturally, our schedules don't really synch up, so we shall see. A few things I'm looking forward to over the next few days:
I've also accepted that we didn't fall pregnant during the FET. I honestly think if we did, it would've ended tragically in another loss due to the amount and dosage of the antibiotics I was placed on to get rid of the cellulitis infection in my leg. So I've come to peace and terms with it now. Here's to praying and hoping for our rainbow baby. The cool thing, the baby - if conceived during this cycle - could potentially share a birthday with my dad or DH.
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So, we're on hold. We are doing LIT therapy and will need to do another round of it, then hysteroscopy for an endometrial scratch, then blood thinners. Depending on when AF comes in Dec will determine if it's fresh ivf or iui bc the incubators are cleaned the last week of Dec.
So until then, OFW it is. So, I'm waiting on AF. Never got to go back to the doc bc I had to be hospitalized instead. I have/had a pretty severe cellulitis infection that actually spread to the muscle. No idea how I got it, where I got it, just know I got it. I also stopped my meds on Sunday (last PIO)/Monday morning (last estrogen pill), so I'm sure AF will come (hopefully) either tomorrow or Friday.
I did text my doc that I wouldn't be able to come and asked if CD 2 was fine, he said yes, so on CD 2 we'll go in. In light of everything, we have decided to just go with an iui over a fresh ivf cycle. This gives me a break, I was exposed to radiation via CT scan and xray, and I still do have an infection. I don't want to waste a bunch of eggs for ivf and they potentially be bad due to circumstance. I look at iui as us trying "naturally", it really isn't much different than if we were trying on our own. They're just getting the sperm past my jerk of a cervix, that's the major difference. I'll likely update when AF comes or after my CD 2 appointment. It would be pretty nifty if the first iui we ever did actually worked. 🤞 🙏 🌈 In two days I'm going back to the doctor for my wtf meeting. In addition, my cellulitis is getting worse. I have no idea if - or how - this effects fertility and/or fertility treatments. We are very strongly leaning towards iui, but more so if I can use injectable medicine. I do not want to use Clomid again. Clomid only gives me one egg at best and makes me an emotional wreck.
Due to this whole cellulitis thing, we want a little break, but not a full break. At least with the iui we know the sperm got past my cervix, which is a big obstacle. We shall see, we'll know soon. So, as with every failed cycle, I need to wait 4 days and test again. It also turns out that they transferred all the embryos so I have no choice but to start from scratch. Would've been nice had someone told me. I'm not all that happy right now, and to make it worse, the doc wasn't there so we were only able to talk to the nurses and need to go back Wednesday.
I know everything happens for a reason; however, this is a really huge change from my expectations. I'm really between try an iui or just do the fresh cycle. Idk what the answer is. I don't because idk why we had difficulty getting pregnant in the first place. Oh well, I'm going to keep praying and try to figure out what the best course of action is. Still hoping and praying for our rainbow baby. I didn't test this morning bc my tests were negative yesterday morning.
I ended up in the hospital last night, I went in thinking I had a blood clot in my left leg to find that I actually have a bad cellulitis infection in my left leg. In all seriousness, up until they did an ultrasound on my leg, it looked very much like DVT. No idea where I got this crap from. 🤷♀️ But the pain is severe - I can barely walk - it feels like my muscle is tearing with every step, and it hurts to the touch, pretty severely I might add. In all honesty, I think it was a blessing in disguise that I didn't fall pregnant this cycle. Idk how this would've effected a developing embryo. So it all works out in the end I suppose. I'm still debating on how to proceed, we will see our doctor tomorrow. I guess it all depends on how this infection clears up. I did get an xray last night of my chest, so maybe not good to do an egg retrieval? Idk. We'll see. Holy crap, this is my 100th post. Not gonna lie, definitely not happy to have a hundred posts on infertility... Kind of wish we'd be talking second trimester now, but God had other plans (that I really wish he'd clue me in on). Really hoping our rainbow baby comes soon. 🌈
Tests were negative again today;however, when I came home from work, I noticed a very thin second line on my Walmart cheapie... It had color... Idk wtf that was about. I know, I'm updating this a little late (morning of the next day), but I did take another set of tests this morning and I thought I might've seen an extremely faint second line of FRER, but idk. 🤷♀️ I've ultimately resigned myself to the fact this (most likely) failed. I'm taking it OK, DH, not so much. I think this one failing just finally broke him. I'm considering one of two options:
In any event, let's talk "symptoms"
That's all folks. I may not update until OTD, we'll see. 3 more days. Well, 4 from 8dp5dt, but it's technically 9dp5dt as I'm writing this..... My tests were negative again this morning. This time last cycle, they were coming up positive instantly. I know it could technically still be early, but I'm going to start figuring out my next steps and prepare all my questions for the doctor on Saturday.
Symptoms:
And that's all. I'll probably test the next three days then give it a rest. 4 more days till OTD. I can't wait for this to be over. Right now, I'm trying to decide if we should take a month off or go right into a fresh cycle. I do still have one snow baby left, but idk if it's smart to do an fet and potentially risk it not surviving the thaw. Part of me feels like a break is good, the other just wants to push thru and keep going until we are holding a baby. My tests were negative, but I think I do see very very very faint shadows - hoping they turn into a BFP. I'm going to have DH look when he gets home. I know it's still early and therefore could change.
I feel really crappy today. In fact, my stomach feels a mix between sour and acid. It's horrible. Symptoms:
6 more days till OTD. Still hoping and praying for our rainbow. 🤞 🙏 🌈 Not much to report. I lazed around all day today.
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That's all. 7 more days till OTD. 🤞🤞🤞 🙏🙏🙏 🌈🌈🌈 On a side note, I am planning to test tomorrow - I know it is a bit on the early side, esp for FET - I hear they can be late implanters, but what the hell? We'll go for it. |
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