Yas!!!! Another goal met!!! 🎉🎉🎉🎉🎉
I'm so happy to finally hit our next goal. We are in the 8th month!!! Some updates:
I have some swelling, and had a really scary experience yesterday when I went to the store to pick up a few clothes to get me thru the next couple weeks. So, I was trying on pants, which involved a lot of bending; I ended up sweating profusely, having heart palpitations, and started seeing spots. I don't know what caused it. It did stop. I will be asking my Obgyn today about it. I guess that's really all for now. We finally signed up for a birthing class. 2 more weeks until 34 weeks (next goal) 4-5 weeks until 36-37 weeks (overall goal) Almost there!!!! 🙏 🤞 🌈
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We are at 31 weeks and still pregnant! Our last week in our 7th month!
So about that amniotic fluid, my Obgyn said it's low for gestational age. So we need to keep an eye on it. I'm guessing the level we get Wednesday will dictate a lot. Nausea has made a reappearance, and I'm having more frequent bowel movements as of late. I also had my first true experience with Braxton Hicks. We are slowly - but surely - inching closer to the finish line. I cannot wait to meet this little girl! I am so incredibly excited for her arrival. I'm excited about my growth scan on Wednesday; we'll get her estimated weight, and hopefully a stable AFI. 1 more week until next goal (32 weeks) 3 more weeks until minimum goal (34 weeks) 5-6 more weeks until ultimate goal (36-37 weeks) 🙏 🤞 🌈 I'm so glad we are still here. I can't believe it's 30 Weeks.
My cervix is holding steady!!! I am beyond excited to say that. I'm a little concerned about the amniotic fluid level of 8.8cm, but that's probably just me being overly concerned. I am getting really excited about meeting my little one. I definitely feel a change in the types of movements, and have noticed a lot of activity after I eat. It's pretty neat watching her do practice breathing on the ultrasound. I have a growth scan in about 2 weeks, and biweekly NSTs - which have been kind of cool to see. No contractions at all on those (YAY!). I have two more weeks until my next goal, and 4 weeks until the minimum ultimate goal. Of course I'm hoping to at least get to 36 or 37 weeks. I figure in about 2-4 weeks I can start moving around and get completely off the modified bed rest. 2 weeks until 32 weeks 4 weeks until minimum goal 6 - 7 weeks till ultimate goal Almost there! 🙏 🤞 🌈 It's been a rough couple of weeks. Nothing really regarding pregnancy, but more so the stress and strife caused by my mother.
I'm not even fully sure where to begin, I feel like years of therapy wouldn't even know where to begin. I guess I will preface this with a few points:
First and foremost, my entire life, wasI told how we don't believe in baby showers, they're jinxing, etc. Well, apparently that is no longer the case. And with that, I am being forced into a shower I have (repeatedly) made clear I do not want. Why, you ask wouldn't I want this very helpful shindig? Let me tell you! Remember how I said wedding planning was a horrific nightmare?? Well, this is the sequel. My hubby and I did our due diligence in research, asked around to friends that have kids (especially those who underwent fertility treatments to have them) when it came to picking things out. Anything, and everything, on that registry were things we had intended/planned on purchasing ourselves. Well, I have faced nothing shy of constant criticism and backlash over what I put on there. To the point that I have said I didn't want this shower, you forced me into it, and then have an issue with what we were planning to buy on our own. (But wait, it gets better) I then explained (yet again) that we picked x item because of ABC safe sleep, and we are not willing to compromise when it comes to safety. THEN, my mother constantly goes well Jane* (name changed for anonymity) said blah blah blah. Who is Jane you might ask? And why does Jane's opinion frustrate and bother you so much? Jane is a daughter of a friend of the family who got knocked up at 18, unplanned, not even done with school. A kid. I found this out right after my first medicated cycle was a fail. I'm not trying to offend anyone, but kids don't really research things like adults do. Especially not adults who have been thru the ringer (feeling like they went 10 rounds with Ali) trying to have kids. I find it incredibly irksome that my mother takes the word of a fucking teenager, over scientists, doctors, and adults twice her age. I finally had enough, and blurted out: I don't give a fuck about what Jane says. Why are you taking the word of a kid over everything else and treating it as the holy Grail?? She then proceeds to go off on what a terrible person I am, and how I've been resentful of her since she got pregnant yadda yadda yadda. Have I been? You're damn right. I was in a horrible state of depression for a long time. I will never deny that. But if you know that's how I feel, why would you continue to do that to me? (oh, but wait, there's even more) When I brought up the topic of safe sleep, and items that I didn't want due to that, you know the constant response I heard for the last 3 weeks: YOU'RE BEING NEUROTIC! Are you f-ing kidding me??? That's you're only argument? An attack on character??? Seriously?? (and, there's even more) She tries to invite herself to my doctor's appointments. I'm like, I'm hooked up to a machine in a room alone, there's no point. "But Jane's mother was allowed to go with her!" seriously??? (yup, more) Then she tries to invite herself into the delivery room. (I have already told her that only my husband will be with me) I remind her that it will just be DH and I, and after birth they do not allow anyone in for two hours for skin to skin, then they take the baby to get a full check up with DH in tow. She further pushes, I say that it is a really personal moment and should be a private moment shared between DH and I. Her response: then I'm not coming down so you can have all the privacy you want. In my head, I'm all bye Felicia 👋. THEN, she stomps around my house like a toddler throwing a tantrum. I am so beyond disgusted with how my mother acts. I am also so incredibly hurt by how much she attacked my character and my being for the last 3 weeks. I have cried almost daily, and have fantasized about dying. What should be such a truly incredible and happy moment in my life, has been a nightmare. I really wish I had a mother who wasn't so toxic towards me. I have a really huge and real concern that her coming to visit after baby is born will cause me to suffer PPD. I feel so bad for my dad, because I don't want them here because of her and her actions and he gets caught in the crossfire. I guess that's all. I really needed to get this out. In the last week before the final stretch.
Nothing too much to report. Baby likes to scare mommy a bit. Earlier this week, I went to the hospital twice for decreased fetal movement, then she was back to her normal self. Then yesterday decides to have a somewhat quiet day. She also thinks it's funny to take her sweet time during kick counts, then throws a party the minute I stop the counter. 😖 I'm still iron deficient, so now I'm taking a third pill a day. I really hope my iron levels go back up because this is insane and difficult. I set up a registry, did a lot of research on mattresses and car seats. As far as symptoms go, it's still pretty consistent. I'm tired, hungry, achy. That's pretty much it. 3 weeks until next goal of 32 weeks 6 weeks until 35 weeks 8 weeks until 37 weeks 🙏 🤞 🌈 |
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