AF has arrived. Prepping for IVF 4. Come on (take home) baby!!
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Idk why I do it to myself. I'm 12 dpo and think, maybe, just maybe, I'll be blessed in my birthday. NOPE.
It's fine. No really, it is. On some level, I feel positive and hopeful for my summer cycle. Part of me feels like I just know it's going to be OK. Idk how or why, I just know. Part of me also feels like I might very well be blessed with twins. I hope so. Anyway, time will tell. Well, initially I wrote a really long thought flow and it never posted. I forgot what I wrote. Ugh.
I'm going into my Obgyn today. I set up the visit panicked about the huge clots coming out of me during AF earlier this month. I guess I want to see if he can check all my sex hormones.
I was actually trying to check my thyroid levels and weight from before my "successful" ivf cycle in June; my thyroid levels went from 2.4 in June to 2.16 this April, and my weight before starting ivf was about 150-ish. My hope is that by losing this weight, I'll hopefully have a greater chance of success, and by success I mean actually staying pregnant. My goal is to be at about 130-135 lbs at the time I start stims end of May. If I keep losing between 2-3 lbs a week, I should be about 137 starting stims, 135 a week into stims. This is my goal. I want to make it. I know I'll feel better once I get to like having only 5 lbs left to go. In any event, I'll update later about this appointment. UPDATE: So the clots are a result of my body trying to get rid of the fluid - which it did. Fluid was not present at all. Anything can cause it. That's today, I go into my doc today for him to check for fluid and I'm hoping to discuss our next steps. My hope is, we can do a fresh cycle and transfer the frozen embryos while we get those embryos tested so we can have two transfers before school starts. We'll see. I'll update after the Doctor.
I have not been keeping up with this - or my cycle - at all this month. I think I might be on CD 21, so about 7 dpo. I've been so focused on losing weight and eating super healthy, that this has really taken a back seat. I'm down about 12 lbs since early April. I have 18 more to go till my goal weight of losing 30 lbs; however, I'd even be OK with losing 13 more before transfer. I have about 6 weeks left until our next fertility cycle. So either 13 or 18 is highly possible. I'll be much happier when that number is under 10 lbs 😂. UPDATE: Uterus is clear; fresh cycle with PGS testing and transfer frozen embryos. Taking saizen (HGH) after AF comes and endo scratch during next cycle. Also, LIT booster next cycle. I surged yesterday, so ovulation will likely come today. I actually got scared I pulled something in my hip flexor yesterday, only to realize that it was ovulation pain 😬
I'll be honest, this cycle, my true focus is weight loss. So, I haven't really been paying attention to this. I'm hoping my hormones are going back to normal as I surged right on time, I guess we'll see better next week at the doc. I'm glad I'm on a strict diet because I've been learning how foods make me feel. Like I've learned that I have a beef intolerance. It doesn't matter if it's organic or conventional, I have an intolerance. I've seen this 3 times in a week: twice with steak, and last night was the first night I had Mongolian grill without beef and I didn't have loose stools from it. I've also learned that pizza makes me exhausted. So bye bye pizza and beef. OK, so I forgot what CD I'm on, I had to check my app.. It's time for me to start tracking ovulation.
I've been sticking to my diet fairly religiously. Especially the time frame for eating. We actually watched Food, Inc and Sugar Coated on Netflix. What an eye opener. I really do look at food and labels much differently now. Especially following a diet that is based around insulin resistance and trying to reset my insulin levels. I've been carb free (with the exception of the small piece of bread I had with my cheat meal) for a week. I definitely do not feel bogged down anymore. I have a little indegestion this morning, but I think because I ate really late last night. Like an hour or so before bed. We finally got plants to plant around the outside of our house.. It's only been like 2 years 😂 I'm so excited to get them planted. Among them, we have my favorite of the hibiscus flower 🌺, grapes 🍇, blueberries, and blackberries. We'll also be planting a small garden. We really want to make our backyard look pretty, so we're looking into what to plant along the walls. Sometimes, I wonder if not having any plants is causing bad feng shui. 🤔 Who knows? So my thyroid is completely normal. I need to go get the released tests tho because I want to see all the levels.
Aside from that, diet is going well. Not much else to report. Today is CD 4, yesterday I went to the regular doc, I'm waiting to hear about my blood tests that came back. I should've heard something today, but didn't. Hopefully I'll hear something tomorrow. I had a full thyroid panel, CBC, I think A1C, other stuff that I can't quite remember.
I am officially starting a diet based on fasting bc I am tipping the scales at 160. My doc recommended the book The Obesity Code by a doctor, so there's a lot of science behind it. I'm also going back to Paleo full fledged. My small frame cannot handle that weight. Period. I'm going to start another section on this site that talks about everything. My goal is to lose 25-30 lbs before my next transfer. Which will put me at 130-35. It's going to take a lot of hard work and dedication, but I'm going to make it happen. Before fertility treatments, I was at about 125-130, which was still heavy for me, but not horrible. I cannot breathe, my joints hurt every morning. I've been working out pretty religiously since Oct, but haven't really been eating clean, so I'm sure that is part of it. I'm hoping that following this diet, I'll see results quickly bc I do have a lot of muscle built up. We shall see. I woke up to AF this morning. Right on time. 🙄
I'm hoping that when I go to my regular doc they can run tests and figure out wtf is wrong with me. I think my thyroid is an issue, and my hormones are way off. I spotted for almost a week before AF arrived. This is so not normal. Plus I can't loose weight for anything, again, not really a normal thing for me. In other news, I plan on asking my doc if we can do a fresh cycle in June and transfer the frozen embryos, this way if that transfer fails, we have the other embryos out for testing; and if it works, we have embryos for a sibling. I'm turning 32 this month and if the transfer in June were to work, I wouldn't be doing another fresh cycle until I'm 34, and if this takes another year and a half, my quality will dramatically decrease at that point as I'll be approaching 36. It's just becoming so frustrating and difficult now. If he agrees to this, I'll likely request doing the HGH again. Idk, we'll see what happens. I'll ask those questions when we go back on the 21st. I'm hoping to lose at least 10lbs before the next cycle, maybe 20, since it'll be about 2 months out. I'm starting Paleo again tomorrow. I'm actually rather excited to do so. |
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