Today I actually got out of the house for a little bit, I'm out of food and needed to go food shopping. Yay!
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Unfortunately, I think I might be feeling my cervix starting, which is not good, and the sign of failure. I'll see what I feel tomorrow, if I don't feel anything I'll take it as a good sign. Also, my one dog has been avoiding me like the plague. Idk what her deal is, she's different when DH is around and idk. Anyway, 6 days until OTD.
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Today I was nauseous in the am, I have some cramping on and off, my boobs are killing me, much worse than what it was when I started the PIO, and I'm tired. But that could just be because my sleeping schedule is all off. I'm happy I got to get out of the house for a bit today, went to get my glasses, went to church, stopped for lunch - was really upset bc they no longer have street tacos, but some really Americanized version of a taco 😢) came home, ate, napped, and now I'm watching movies again. I'm so beat tho.
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7 more days to OTD. Just wake me up on July 6 please. Not much to really report today, I wake up every morning feeling like I've been repeatedly kicked in the uterus. I have noticed more frequent bowel movements, which is odd. Some light pressure here and there - that seems to have subsided. Increased hunger, I keep eating - could be bored eating tho. I'm going stir crazy. Tomorrow I'm going to pick up my prescription sunglasses and light a candle at church.
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My one dog is also acting really strange lately with me, she's been avoiding me or trying to jump into my lap, idk what her deal is. 8 more days till OTD. I am starting to get nervous, as long as I don't feel my cervix trying to tear open on 6/7dp I'll be cautiously optimistic. Today is 3 days past. I'm not really feeling the cramping that much not did I have nausea. I did feel some pressure on and off, and I've been completely ravenous. Oddly, my urine is starting to smell a little funky at times and not from dehydration, I drink a lot of water.
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We shall see what tomorrow will bring. There are 9 days left to OTD What I do feel, I just know that this round is going to be successful, I'm not sure which transfer it will be, but I know this round is the round. Today is 2dp5dt, I've been sitting in bed watching movies and sleeping. Taking it super easy. I still have some of the same symptoms as yesterday, at times I feel like someone kicked me in the uterus - especially when I get up from sleeping.
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10 more days until OTD (official test day). I am not testing beforehand, I feel like it's hurt me in the past, but then again, it is easier to know before you go in your results. If I do it definitely won't be until the morning of. But most likely I'm waiting till the test. So today is 1dp5dt, I've been really crampy on and off since the transfer, so it may still be lingering from the er or bc I cramped immediately post transfer. I feel like I've been punched in my lower stomach. Who knows. I still feel pressure when I pee too, again could still be from er. I did feel extremely nauseous this morning and this afternoon, and I had a dream about tamales, so if course that's what I ate after I woke up.
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So, I was going thru my journal from last time, no cramping at this point. As long as I don't feel my cervix opening (the fun thing about having a stenotic cervix) at around day 6 or 7 I'll take it as a good sign. OK, officially PUPO with twins!!!!!
So this is the stats from this round: 7 eggs All eggs fertilized 5 blasts 2 transferred 3 ❄️ babies Yay!!! I am definitely still nervous and very likely will be until I have the catheter in me with my embryos and have the embryologist catch me up to speed on what the stats were and how many are remaining. I will of course update with this info.
Things just feel so extremely different this time around, I got 2 hours of sleep, I didn't want to drink coffee this morning so I just had 1.5 liters of water to "get things moving". I didn't want to have to feel like I had to/had to 💩 during or after transfer. I want my day to be relaxed without any worry or fear. We also hit the $5 and $3.47 movie bins at Walmart last night and got a few comedic gems I'm ecstatic to watch. I feel like the FET transfer was not good bc of my cervix, so I plan to wear the herbal tape on those points on my hand to hopefully alleviate that. I'm hoping that I'm not only the first one there for transfer, but also that the office isn't crazy busy like it's been as of late. I have little to no pain today. I fear 2 things: 1. all embryos having arrested prior to transfer; 2. a traumatic transfer. After all things conclude I will feel worlds better and will definitely nap a lot today. I have one more day to transfer, praying and hoping my embabies are still growing and dividing. 🙏🙏🙏
I do feel a tad better today, thank god bc it's been straight up brutal. So the progesterone is actually giving me symptoms that mimic pregnancy symptoms this time around. My boobs hurt like hell, my memory is shot, and I just feel off. Actually, this time around my body just feels completely different and I'm in a completely different mental state as well. It legit just feels like another day, doesn't feel like Christmas Eve like it did last time. I actually have forgotten when transfer was, I mean idk if this is a defense mechanism or what, or being jaded, or having been thru this before. I'm really not sure. But I guess to some degree it is taking away the pressure of it all. I am really afraid of no embabies being there tomorrow, BC I'm just so fixated on the fact I was told Day 3 initially. I'm scared. I really am. I'm trying not to think about it. But I guess at the end of the day, if it wasn't meant to transfer on day 5, then it wasn't meant to and I dropped the ball on that. So I have no one to blame but myself. I just have to really surrender all this. And I feel like I really am to a degree. Time will tell. I shall update tomorrow when I find everything out. I am officially 2 days away from transfer. I'm excited, yet calm, but also maybe detached?
I know that the detached part doesn't sound good, but hear me out. I had 2 transfers fail with 4 good quality embryos. It is hard to be super gung ho and excited after two failures. I keep reminding myself this is a new cycle and I did take supplements that were supposed to help. I am not testing early, bc in reality there is nothing I can do, it either worked or it didn't. No sense in being depressed for a week before I can start over. I am definitely in a lot more pain this time than I was last time. I can still barely walk and sit without moderate pain. Bathroom trips are the absolute worse. The pressure is super intense to the point that I don't feel like I fully evacuate my bowels; this is a huge problem for me due to my laundry list of digestive issues. I'm just hoping it is all worth it in the end and we have a healthy take home baby/babies. |
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