This cycle is pretty much a BFN. All my tests from yesterday and today are BFN. So now, I still need to continue stabbing myself with PIO until Saturday, to be told to wait 4 days and test again. Then we'll wait for AF, then move onto FET.
I am going to push to see if he'll do a natural FET, my body does not react well to estradiol on any level whatsoever. I feel like this is why our FET cycles have failed every single time. I'm finding it hard to keep hope alive. I'm finding I'm really angry with God, like wtf dude?! Why make us endure 2 MCs, and then go back to being infertile? Like wtf?!? Then, in addition to that, make us endure pregnancy announcement, after pregnancy announcement, and not to mention coming up on our first due date! How frigging sadistic. I'm still waiting for the gender reveal shit from the one announcement, don't worry, we'll probably get it about that time. Constant insult to injury. I need to give my boss the heads up today about this, idk how it's going to go. I guess we'll see. Now to think of a list of questions to ask the doctor on Saturday.
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In the morning, the trigger was I guess fully out of my system. So idk. The test was stark white and of course in scared this means we're out.
Today was my first day back, it was hard and frustrating. I noticed that I had a handful that legit did nothing while I was out. Which is rather upsetting, but it's ultimately on them. In any event Symptoms:
And that's all. 5 more days to OTD. Hoping and praying this worked. 🙏 🤞 Not much to really report. The trigger is still in my system. I really just want this cycle too work. I'm at that point where you go crazy with doubt and what not. I've been trying to not freak out, but I can't seem to help it.
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That's really it. 6 days left to OTD. Hoping tomorrow's test shows a darker line and we can claim some success. 🙏 🤞 It appears the trigger is still in my system.
I don't really have much to report. I kind of wish I was feeling more, with my successful transfer, I felt nauseous and cramping all the time. I also had funky smelling urine, of which I'm not having anymore. Idk. I'm still hoping this worked. I feel like soon, it'll happen soon. Symptoms:
7 more days The trigger is still in my system. Not too much to report today, went to church, lit some candles, telecommuted into work. I also got tamales mmmmmm 😊
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That's all really, 8 more days till OTD. I can't wait to find out, hoping and praying this worked. 🤞 🙏 Hmm, idk. I keep looking back at my successful cycle to see how I'm stacking up. I do have mild cramping on and off - sometimes it's more painful. My right ovary hurts a lot. Some pressure at times when peeing.
The trigger is still in my system, most moments I feel really hopeful, but I get scared. Not last night, but the night before I had really intense stabbing pain - I want to believe that it was implantation, but I think it would be too soon as the embryos were only 4.5 days old, I did have assisted hatching, but I feel like that is too early. Symptoms:
9 more days to OTD.🤞 🙏 🌈 Not much to really report. I'm kind of tired. Have not heard back from the doc yet on my embryos. So no idea if they made it or not.
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UPDATE: Both embryos made it to freeze - perfect blasts! Not much to report today. I've had nothing but bizarre dreams since I got home yesterday. And I mean weird. No idea what is causing them. Hoping it's the growing embies, but that's probably impossible.
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There really isn't much to report on. Tomorrow I find out how many made it to freeze out of two left. So we shall see. I'll update probably after I receive that info. I still have the trigger shot in my system, wondfo still shows positive, hoping that aids in implantation. 11 days to OTD. I haven't decided if I'm going to test early or not. I'll probably definitely test until the trigger is completely gone. Hoping and praying this works. 🙏🙏🙏 🤞🤞🤞 🌈🌈🌈 So, idk how I feel. Like I have 4 embryos on day 3, which I know is better than some, but I have had more in the past. That being said, 2 were transferred, 2 will grow until day 5, and I will contact my doctor for an update. If they're good, they will be frozen.
Officially PUPO with Twins! Today is transfer day.
I'm excited and nervous and calm. I would say I slept better this time than either other time. Hopefully that's a sign! This time, I'm also not really worried about my cervix being a jerk, but then again, I did use the herbal tape on those points yesterday, and will likely wear it until I get to the office this morning. I'm hoping for the transfer to go smoothly; with both FETs, my cervix caused the transfers to be traumatic. However, both fresh transfers have gone much better. I also can't wait for the embryologist to catch me up to speed on how many eggs, how many fertilized, how many made it to day 3, and just assure me that they did do the AH (assisted hatching). I will of course update when I know. I plan on sleeping a lot today, this is the day that is just best to really rest. I actually wonder if it's best to just rest the next 2 days being it's a 3 day vs a 5 day. Who knows. I guess I'll play it by how I feel. I do plan on watching comedy only, I do believe that makes a huge difference. Until update! 🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏 |
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