Today I'm 3 days past my second iui. I've truly decided to live life as I normally would this cycle and so far, I have.
I've gone for a jog yesterday, and plan to today. The weather was really crappy for two weeks and thus I couldn't. I'm also testing out new stocks specifically for running since I kept getting nasty blisters. I did drop my weights a little bit, mostly to appease DH and my parents. I also will be dropping ankle weights and I guess removing the impact from my boxing drills (Les Mills Combat). I'll say today, or tomorrow, is likely my last run. Just based on where I am going to be in my cycle. I wouldn't run after ET, and tomorrow or Monday would be the day of ET, if I was having one. But, I do plan to go for walks after work. I'm looking forward fo the upcoming 3day weekend. I'm ready for June already, for a couple reasons: 1. Schools over no more bullshit, 2. I am never going back. 🎉🎉🎉 Something weird is happening right now. During my successful cycle, I just *knew* it was going to work, and I kinda sorta feel like that now. I hope I'm right. I need to go back and see if I've been feeling this way or not in my last couple cycles.
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Yesterday, I felt super crappy. Today I feel super crappy. I'm definitely sick with something which is completely deterring me from taking the prednisone this cycle. Not sure if severe allergies, or sinus infection, or strep. All I know is I want to sleep. A lot.
I've decided to try the antihistamine protocol on my own this cycle. It starts at 4dpo (so Mon for me) and consists of taking claritin (which I get bad fall allergies and just refuse to take meds) and pepcid (again I have GERD so whatevs). It also uses baby aspirin (which I'm supposed to take) and prednisone (which I'm going to skip, but might take a very very low dose after 5 days). My acupuncturist has me on a liquid herbal thing, and I start prometrium in a couple days. I'm debating on whether or not I'll test early. I know I'll test before I go in on the 13th for official pregnancy test. I have hope for this cycle, but at the same time, I'm not holding my breath. If this was a natural cycle without an iui, I wouldn't even test, so I might just treat it that way and hope I get a great surprise. Both DH and my mom want me to scale back on my workout intensity. So I'll cut my ankle weights and drop from 15#dumbbells to 10#ones. I'll also walk over running. I just don't want to completely put life on hold until I have a legitimate reason to do so. The one thing I will do, I will cut ab workouts. That is one thing I will definitely scale off. Starting like 2-3 days from now. Today I go in for my second insemination, I had my first yesterday. I was totally scrambling to get everything together for work yesterday morning. I didn't even get to exercise. I'm planning to exercise a bit today in the am, and maybe walk a bit in the pm.
I'm so hoping that this cycle works, but at the same time, keeping a very level head and realistic expectations about it. I actually can't wait to get back to my transfers - tho I do still hope I don't need it because this works. On some whacky level, I feel like pregnancy is coming sooner than I think - at times right now. It's very very strange. I can't really explain it better than that. I guess time will tell. Today I'll find out when I go in for pregnancy test. I'm really hoping it falls on a weekend and not a week day because I don't want to lose time off. I need it for potential transfers and fresh IVF cycles. Hopefully not, but maybe. Today I go in for my check. Curious to see if I have more than one follicle forming. Hoping I do, but not holding my breath. I'll likely find out when trigger and insemination will be. I really am hoping this works. I'm also sick. Omg I feel like I'm dying.
UPDATE: So, I was supposed to trigger tonight at 10, but I started surging naturally before that. So I had to trigger immediately and I'm now doing a double insemination tomorrow and Thursday. Sometimes I swear the universe is like you didn't listen to my nudge (was totally thinking about asking for double iui, but was like eh what's the likelihood of success), so here's a shove. Here's to hoping for success!! 🤞 🙏 It's CD 3. I was thinking that I'm not going to test early this cycle. Since it's just like a regular cycle (if we weren't dealing with if), I'm just going to wait. Clearly I can still get AF on the progesterone suppositories, so it's not like it's prolonging AF for me.
I met with my acupuncturist yesterday, she consulted with her classmate who has a specialty in IF and they're going to focus on "nourishing" me. So I'll be on herbs for a couple of months starting at ovulation this cycle. I'm trying to decide if I want to do another iui next cycle or just give my body the time off. Or maybe see if we can just let me produce my own egg and they can trigger me. We'll see. Kind of hoping this works and we don't need to think about that 🤞. But I figure if we're only getting one egg, then maybe I can just do my own instead of being on drugs. AF is kind of on the light side this cycle. Not really quite sure why, it's odd. Today is CD 2. AF started while I was still on the endometrin, which I wasn't expecting, so I was scrambling to get things together to go to the doctor today.
This is my first official IUI cycle; the last time we did one, it was because I spontaneously ovulated during an FET cycle, so I really have no idea what to expect. I don't know what the medications look like, I don't know how many follicles they'll aim for - nothing. So it'll be pretty interesting to see what happens. On some level, I'm really excited for a couple reasons.
In addition, my acupuncturist is going to put me on a course of herbs for 2 cycles. So hopefully something just makes this all work. UPDATE: No cysts. Take merional for 4 days - every other day. Go back next week. Today is test day. At home: BFN. I'll find out at the doctor within the next couple hours. I'll also hopefully find out next steps. I'm hoping we can go right into another FET and my hope is it just works. I would like to keep the same exact protocol. I'll update all this later.
UPDATE: BFN official. We will not be transferring for a couple cycles. My doctor is going to learn how to do the PRP for transfer and will use that to transfer the last two embryos. However, so my DH and I don't feel like we're sitting with our thumbs up our asses and I go crazy in the wait time, we'll do IUIs. So, I know it's early to call this a bust, but for my sanity, I'm going to.
I had a slight glimmer of hope yesterday because of a vvvfbfp on FRER and Walmart cheapie. However, I knew there was a 50/50 chance it was also just lingering trigger. This morning unfortunately showed me it was lingering trigger. I know with FETs, it could implant a little later, so I know that until Thursday, there is still a chance - not a very good one, but one none the less. If I get a BFN on Thursday, I'm going to start exercising again. This is what I do feel:
I just don't feel completely negative towards this. I feel like it's coming soon. I want to make some changes in my home, and I want to make sure I do self reiki daily. I might even do the fertility yoga I brought like 3 years ago. I think intuitively we just know sometimes. When we got pregnant, I knew that cycle was resulting in a pregnancy. Like I knew it like I knew the sun was going to rise. I haven't felt that way since. I did feel the frozen embabies from January's cycle were going to work, but I don't think we've transferred them yet. Maybe that's why I'm so hopeful right now. Maybe I just know those are going to work. Time will tell. May go radio silence until I see the Doctor this weekend. I still feel nothing.
I go back to work tomorrow. 6 days till OTD. BFN on my HPT today. So trigger is out and I'm not pregnant. What a sucky combination.
I feel nothing. Only thing I do feel is sweaty AF in the morning and the 20 million times I pee at night because of the prednisone. That's it. I'm fully starting to expect this cycle to be a complete bust. Oh well. 7 days till OTD. |
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