I have one more day to transfer, praying and hoping my embabies are still growing and dividing. 🙏🙏🙏
I do feel a tad better today, thank god bc it's been straight up brutal. So the progesterone is actually giving me symptoms that mimic pregnancy symptoms this time around. My boobs hurt like hell, my memory is shot, and I just feel off. Actually, this time around my body just feels completely different and I'm in a completely different mental state as well. It legit just feels like another day, doesn't feel like Christmas Eve like it did last time. I actually have forgotten when transfer was, I mean idk if this is a defense mechanism or what, or being jaded, or having been thru this before. I'm really not sure. But I guess to some degree it is taking away the pressure of it all. I am really afraid of no embabies being there tomorrow, BC I'm just so fixated on the fact I was told Day 3 initially. I'm scared. I really am. I'm trying not to think about it. But I guess at the end of the day, if it wasn't meant to transfer on day 5, then it wasn't meant to and I dropped the ball on that. So I have no one to blame but myself. I just have to really surrender all this. And I feel like I really am to a degree. Time will tell. I shall update tomorrow when I find everything out.
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